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tonight, i can not sleep. i even got all settled and prepared for blissful unconciousness, read a little miranda july, and DID NOT GET EVEN SOMEWHAT close to sleep after and hour and a half of complete inactivity. fuck hot guys who are nice and wonderful and not interested. seriously, the reasonable amount of time for me to be unhappy about this bullshit elasped a long time ago. the amount of time alotted for me to be so disburbed and depressed by said bullshit that i cannot seemed to function right was never even fucking alotted because such a reaction is just ridiculous but i cannot seem to stop. bad dreams and insomnia are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo lame. i really truly am just a silly teenage girl. i see what i'm doing but i just can't stop.